Breaking up is hard to do.

02 Feb

It’s been a really heavy day. It started off kinda heavy, but then I decided to just go with it and scheduled some mourning time and reread all the old journals and had a right proper pity fest. I think there must be something wrong with me because even though there were something like 5 almost breakups over the last year (most of them on my end) it’s left me missing him more than ever and mustering every ounce of self restraint I have not to call him. Apologies for the excessively depressing content. (I’ll make up for it soon by flashing my toolkit.) It seems like just yesterday when I was loving life and planning to take a guy up on his offer for coffee sometime. The ups and downs get less frequent and milder, right? That’s what I keep hearing anyway. Still waiting for it to actually happen. And time is in some weird vortex. It’s only been 2 weeks since we stopped talking. It feels like months. Nope. 13 days.

But look! Look how pretty my gauntlet is coming along. Poor dad got put aside for a more selfish project. But hey, if now’s not the time to be selfish, when is? I am so proud of how this is turning out. Especially since I don’t have a pattern. It has meant a lot of ripping back and fixing things, but luckily it’s a pretty quick little project, so that’s not a big deal. Oh, and I’m calling this my Friday Cat Blogging picture too.

Also look at the utterly random package of goodies from my mom. She sent me a batch of my all time favorite cookies – cherry winks. (I usually make a batch of these with my dad every Christmas. This year we didn’t get to it. Too much stress.) You’ll also note the Shih Tzu playing cards. (My last and best ever dog was a Shih Tzu.) Now comes the utter randomness. Apparently she was cleaning and sent me things she didn’t know what to do with. Do you see the little pearl string doggies. I made them. Maybe in early high school, or late middle school. I can’t remember who taught me, but I thought they were just the coolest thing ever.


Posted by on February 2, 2006 in friday cat blogging, knitting, other bits of life


10 responses to “Breaking up is hard to do.

  1. Emily

    February 2, 2006 at 7:21 pm

    The gauntlets look great! What kind of yarn is that?

  2. ellie

    February 2, 2006 at 9:05 pm

    Thanks! I’m so proud. It’s called “crazy cotton” and it’s by Schachenmayr.

  3. Mary

    February 2, 2006 at 10:12 pm

    Yes, roller coaster feeling evens out to kiddie ride, with time. Bank on that.
    I like the gauntlets. Were I not planning a move to warmer weather, I might try them…as it is I skip wearing my gloves in this 30+/- degree weather…

  4. Michelle

    February 2, 2006 at 10:14 pm

    I really like those gauntlets, too. You don’t need to apologize for how you’re feeling and what you’re going through right now. I completely empathize and understand, and I’m sure that everyone who takes the time to read you feels the same way. Wishing you all of the best… and of course now is the time to treat yourself so rock on with the gauntlets. It’s all about you now, and that can be a good thing, too.

  5. ellie

    February 2, 2006 at 11:01 pm

    Mary – It was 80 degrees today here. These aren’t for outdoors, they’re for once you get in to the air-conditioning 😉
    Michelle – Thanks so much for the support. 🙂

  6. katiedid

    February 3, 2006 at 9:05 am

    I like the gauntlets too! And the glow-in-the-dark star. I had those as an adult… and the little girl with the big hat – she looks like Holly Hobby dressed in red.
    I hope your weekend leaves you feeling a bit better. 🙂

  7. Imbrium

    February 3, 2006 at 12:35 pm

    It evens out and becomes a dull ache and then a memory that puts a little ironic smirk on your face. And your friends are here to sit with you until it feels better, and beyond.
    The gauntlets are as cute as can be…I need to make myself a pair of those for the office. Too much air conditioning! How can I type when I can’t feel my fingers?

  8. ellie

    February 3, 2006 at 2:51 pm

    Thanks again guys! You all rock.
    katiedid – You just reminded me that I have a whole bag of those stars. I couldn’t have them up in various bedrooms in the past either because of boyfriends’ refusals or stucco ceilings, but I think my current bedroom could handle them and there’s no one to tell me they make the room too bright or they’re too tacky. I’m totally putting them up. Thanks!

  9. Morgan

    February 3, 2006 at 8:40 pm

    I don’t know why it is that I find gauntlets so appealing. They have almost nothing to do with the general aesthetics of my wardrobe, and yet…
    Can’t wait to see you. I will ply you with alcohol!

  10. ellie

    February 5, 2006 at 9:51 pm

    Morgan, I accept! And I cannot picture you in gauntlets to save my life.


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